I still have trouble introducing myself as a writer

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“So what do you do for a living?” asks a woman I’ve just met.

“I’m a web site developer.” I reply. “I specialize in WordPress sites. What do you do?”

“I’m a writer. I’ve been doing a lot of advertising copy and ecommerce stuff lately.”

“That’s cool.” End of statement. I do not mention that I’m a writer. I do not mention that I have written two books published by traditional publishing houses. I do not mention that my old blog was so popular that at one point that it was covering my rent every month. I sit down and check my email and wonder, why do I still have such a problem introducing myself as a writer?

One problem is that if I tell people I’m a writer then I have to tell them what books I’ve written, which means we’ll have to have a conversation about my chronic headache and my lifelong struggle with weight. Then come the headache remedies and diet suggestions and oh-my-God please shoot me. This is a conversation I do not want to have with someone I just met. Of course, it’s my own damn fault for writing books about my chronic headache and my lifelong struggle with weight. Though one could argue that I wrote the books so I no longer had to talk about those things. Just read the books! It’s all in there.

The other problem is that if you introduce yourself as a writer, people want to know what you’re working on now, and I’m not working on anything now other than posting a blog entry once a week so I don’t owe Shauna five dollars. Even though I’ve written two books, I sometimes feel like a failure because I’m not currently writing the next great novel. I’m flattered and grateful that people are interested in what I’m doing or like my writing enough that they want another book from me, but it also makes me feel like a loser who is not living up to her potential. It’s a bit strange to introduce your self as a writer if you’re not currently writing anything.

However, it is rather silly not to mention that I’m a writer. There have been several times that a royalty check has saved my ass from eating only Ramen for the month. And if we’re playing a pure numbers game, there are more people in the world who know me primarily because of my books or blog than because I designed a kick-ass gluten-free blog. It’s also my job as an author to promote my own books, which is hard to do when you’re not telling anyone about them.

It can also be a bit awkward if someone I introduced myself to as a web developer learns that I’m also a writer, particularly when that person is also a writer. They must wonder why I didn’t mention it earlier. It’s like I’m protecting a secret identity that is so not secret. Partly, I don’t want anyone to feel like I’m showing off. Woo-hoo, look at me with my published books! I’m so fancy! Context has to do with it too. If I were at a blog conference I would introduce myself as a blogger first. I don’t know if I’d mention the books or not, but I’d mention I was a writer before telling them I was also a WordPress developer.

Introducing myself as a writer also make me feel slightly narcissistic or self-important, but that might be because I mainly write about my own life. Look at me! I’m so important! You should be interested in all the minute details of my life! I know some people suffer from “imposter syndrome” where they feel like any success they have has only come because they’re been faking it and eventually everyone will figure out they don’t know what they’re doing. I don’t feel like I suffer from that, though I probably did earlier in my career. I definitely feel like a writer, but I don’t feel the need to tell everyone that.

I don’t know if this will ever change. One day I might actually write the next great American novel, become filthy rich, give up web design, and then I might, maybe, feel ok introducing myself as a writer. Until then, hello, my name is Jennette and I’m a WordPress developer.

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Natalie • July 23, 2014 at 7:41 pm

About a year ago I stopped taking on paid work as an editor so I could write my first novel. It’s not finished yet, but I’m still working on it. So am I an editor, even though I haven’t done it for a while, or a writer, even though I haven’t had anything published or even finished? Or a stay-at-home mum? Or a full-time puppy minder?

I still call myself an editor.

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NM • July 24, 2014 at 12:32 am

I only know you (Jen) as an author and blogger. So in my world, your claim to the author title is totally legit. I love your down-to-earth writing!

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Maureen • July 24, 2014 at 9:29 am

Oh, I’m so glad you are posting so often! You really are a talented writer. When I come back to your blog, I wonder how I ever read another :-)

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Deb • July 24, 2014 at 9:52 am

Hey there,

Aren’t people and their feelings fascinating?

We are all imposters and experts concurrently.

You can say any damn thing you want. The important thing is thinking about why you say it, which you are doing. Love it!

Thank you for putting it out there. You ARE a writer and you don’t have to tell anyone. ;-)

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Becky Brandon • July 24, 2014 at 5:24 pm

Jen, You simply must tell people you’re a writer. Then you can fictionalize your titles. I would suggest something “How Your Sexual Fantasies Tell Your IQ” and then watch the other person cringe…Nobody really wants to know the answer to this one, right? If they think you know, they’ll inch away quickly.

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barbara r. • July 24, 2014 at 6:26 pm

When I was at my former job working at a famous place with famous people, I hated being asked about it, so when i was at a party or something, I was always tempted tell people I was a gynecologist who works from home. I figured that would shut down any further questions.

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Alexis • July 25, 2014 at 4:02 pm

You don’t owe anything to anyone or need any approval. That is something that I’ve learned and still in the process of learning.

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Rebecca • July 26, 2014 at 5:56 pm

Hello, Jennette. I am a WordPress reader.

If you were to wish to reference your writing career, could you say you are an author? That can sidestep the “what are you writing now?” question, but it does still bring up the subject of your books.

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Lyn • August 3, 2014 at 5:01 pm

Own it! You are a writer, not just as an occupation but I think as part of YOU. Be proud of that! (And you’re a darned good one too).

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